I did a thing just now to de-stress and pretended I could paint lololololol 
To be fair it’s not bad for someone who has literally never taken an art class ever ever.

I did a thing just now to de-stress and pretended I could paint lololololol
To be fair it’s not bad for someone who has literally never taken an art class ever ever.

I miss Nick Cave

like

this is a problem in my life right now

everything was so intense for those few days that I’m experiencing actual withdrawals

guuuughhhhh

(also im moving in the am which is an exciting thing but also i wont have internet so bye)

thebowspring:

"Israel does its best to prevent civilian casualties"*targets and bombs all the places that help save civilian lives*


Sigh

thebowspring:

"Israel does its best to prevent civilian casualties"

*targets and bombs all the places that help save civilian lives*

Sigh

10:15am
Reblogged from anerdyfeminist

kingcheddarxvii:

notviolet:

Chris Pratt Interrupts Interview To French Braid Intern’s Hair

SHUT THE HELL U P

this man has gone too far

MY ACTUAL dream OMG HE IS BECOMING TOO MUCH HELP

(Source: chrisprattdelicious)

10:12am
Reblogged from anerdyfeminist

I love him

(Source: fallontonight)

10:10am
Reblogged from thinkingmagical
dglsplsblg:

Staten Island man dies after NYPD cop puts him in chokehold — SEE THE VIDEO

A 400-pound asthmatic Staten Island dad died Thursday after a cop put him in a chokehold and other officers appeared to slam his head against the sidewalk, video of the incident shows.
“I can’t breathe! I can’t breathe!” Eric Garner, 43, repeatedly screamed after at least five NYPD officers took him down in front of a Tompkinsville beauty supply store when he balked at being handcuffed.
Within moments Garner, a married father of six children with two grandchildren, stopped struggling and appeared to be unconscious as police called paramedics to the scene. An angry crowd gathered, some recording with smartphones.
“When I kissed my husband this morning, I never thought it would be for the last time,” Garner’s wife, Esaw, told the Daily News.
She got no details from police until after she had gone to the hospital to identify his body, she said.
“I saw him with his eyes wide open and I said, ‘Babe, don’t leave me, I need you.’ But he was already gone,” she said.

and people wonder why black people don’t trust or have any love for cops. they murdered this man. this black man. and for what? fucking cigarettes. yea, WE’RE the fucking problem.

dglsplsblg:

Staten Island man dies after NYPD cop puts him in chokehold — SEE THE VIDEO

A 400-pound asthmatic Staten Island dad died Thursday after a cop put him in a chokehold and other officers appeared to slam his head against the sidewalk, video of the incident shows.

“I can’t breathe! I can’t breathe!” Eric Garner, 43, repeatedly screamed after at least five NYPD officers took him down in front of a Tompkinsville beauty supply store when he balked at being handcuffed.

Within moments Garner, a married father of six children with two grandchildren, stopped struggling and appeared to be unconscious as police called paramedics to the scene. An angry crowd gathered, some recording with smartphones.

“When I kissed my husband this morning, I never thought it would be for the last time,” Garner’s wife, Esaw, told the Daily News.

She got no details from police until after she had gone to the hospital to identify his body, she said.

“I saw him with his eyes wide open and I said, ‘Babe, don’t leave me, I need you.’ But he was already gone,” she said.

and people wonder why black people don’t trust or have any love for cops. they murdered this man. this black man. and for what? fucking cigarettes. yea, WE’RE the fucking problem.

i’m still getting messages like ‘you handled yourself so beautifully up there- those moments can be awkward but you gave the crowd no choice but to cheer’ and i’m just like falling over remembering because those who get it get it and it makes me feel less crazy for being stunned at what a big moment that was and just … fuck idk.It’s crazy how quickly some moments can feel so surreal and all you’re left with is flashes of strong memory. The smell. The grip of a hand. Heart racing. Piercing eyes. WHATEVERRRRR

eluting:

this is it. I want this on my tombstone.

you guys

(Source: wispygirl)

I AM EXPERIENCING ALL OF THE THOUGHTS AND ALL OF THE FEELINGS AFTER 20000 DAYS ON EARTH AND MY MIND IS REELING

but i wont post them bc I’m certain after this sleepless weekend, they mostly won’t make sense. Incoherent. I don’t have the power to put into words everything that’s fluttering about tonight. Maybe I will try and find some clarity in the morning. 

I hope Nick Cave lives forever (or at least until I die of old age).

fell asleep and woke up bc I started “seeing colors” and hearing “can you feel my heart beat?” But it was literally just my overstimulated brain probably trying to make sense of my physical state. Crazy weekend plus general life uncertainty and unemployment and a big move this week = FRAZZLED AS FUCK

So I don’t talk about this often (I focus more on general introversion) but I’ve tested as Highly Sensitive Person (albeit on the lighter side) and it’s really wonderful whenever I am really careful and deliberate of it because I enjoy so much so deeply (mainly music) and it can really become such a huge experience…. except it can become so overwhelming. After being at very intense Nick Cave shows, front row, twice in a weekend… music that ALREADY moves me very deeply… my whole body is just totally overstimulated. I have barely slept because I feel like my heart is trying to jump out of my body (and run back to Nick probs) and I’ve barely been able to eat because my stomach is completely freaking out and I’m starting to feel frazzled from feeling so so much. 

It’s like incredible self-care, but can occasionally go over the top and become a negative thing (physically, not emotionally) and now I feel like I need some self care for my self care. 

This is why I’m usually very guarded about letting my emotions just totally run wild and free and open because they can just get so gigantic and overpowering. But there’s no holding back when something touches you so so deeply that you just have to let go and let yourself go on an emotional rollercoaster. And nothing in the world has as many ups and downs and intertwineds (made up word) as Nick’s work.

The exhilaration while it lasts is so real and intense…. and then there’s exhaustion. 

Still, I’d never take it back. Maybe tomorrow my system will be a little calmer and I can start getting back to normal again. There’s gonna be a loooooot of quiet the next few days so I can restore, rebalance, renew. 

I just had to write some of this down because I’m still feeling A LOT and it’s been like 48 hours or whatever and my body is like ‘WTFISGOINGON’. YO, HEART, YOU CAN SLOW DOWN AGAIN THE COAST IS CLEAR. 

6:55pm
Reblogged from ruinedchildhood

Me and beneathflowers.

(Source: thequeenbey)

I was ridin’, I was ridin’, oh
The sun, the sun, the sun was rising from the field

I got a feeling I just can’t shake
I got a feeling that just won’t go away
You’ve got it, just keep on pushing and, keep on pushing and
Push the sky away

And if your friends think that you should do it different
And if they think that you should do it the same
You’ve got it, just keep on pushing and, keep on pushing and
Push the sky away

And if you feel you got everything you came for
If you got everything and you don’t want no more
You’ve got it, just keep on pushing and, keep on pushing and
Push the sky away

And some people say it’s just rock ‘n’ roll
Aw, but it gets you right down to your soul
You’ve got it, just keep on pushing and, keep on pushing and
Push the sky away

You’ve got it, just keep on pushing and, keep on pushing and
Push the sky away

Like so many of his songs, this one has started playing a big big role in my life. Since it’s new, it’s not tied up in memories or emotions of the past, but has evolved and taken new meaning every month of the past year. Recently I’ve been really haunted by it and have been so lucky to experience it live and in such an intimate way. With those super intense eyes (that I’m convinced perceive more than most people) it felt like he knew that I needed to hear it. THE JUXTAPOSITION OF SO MUCH IN HIS MUSIC IS JUST ;ALKDJFA;SLKDFAJ DSFA (there i go again)

(Source: Spotify)

JAMES WILL OFFICIALLY BE PLAYING FOR REAL MADRID AND I HOPE HE SCORES A LOT OF GOALS SO HE CAN DO HIS ADORABLE CELEBRATION DANCE 

JAMES WILL OFFICIALLY BE PLAYING FOR REAL MADRID AND I HOPE HE SCORES A LOT OF GOALS SO HE CAN DO HIS ADORABLE CELEBRATION DANCE 

Cant believe I will finally see these two idiots again after being away from Italy for six years in a little over a month. 

(They’re not idiots. Most of the time. I love them a lot.)

Cant believe I will finally see these two idiots again after being away from Italy for six years in a little over a month.

(They’re not idiots. Most of the time. I love them a lot.)